a faerie's night

2008-11-24T10:44:00.000-08:00

birds

2008-11-08T18:25:00.000-08:00

Rainy Days

2008-10-24T00:53:00.001-07:00

Pitter patter. Drops of rain slowly fall on the cold concrete. Exploding into smaller droplets on contact. Beautiful mirrors of colour. Pinks, purples, and blues--all dancing in the light. They hold an audience frozen. There's something purifying in watching the light dance in the water. Slowly the dirt and debris slowly washes away, leaving clean streets and walks behind. Sound echoes in between the buildings. Eerie and beautiful. Nature's gift to human conquest over it. But unless one stops and listens, you'll miss the greatest symphony. People walk by not knowing or caring that they're missing one of history's greatest moments. A crescendo is heard as the light fall of rain turns into a deluge. Haunting, but still beautiful. Young girls and boys spill forth from buildings. Dancing and playing in the water falling heavily from the heavens. A gray curtain hiding the ugliness called humanity. However, it's because of the buildings that the beautiful songs and music can be created. Harkening back to a past that was simpler.

Then it stops. Silence reigns. Children pause, adults slow down. They realize that they just missed the greatest song. Their psyche longs to go back just even ten seconds. But the moment is lost and the magic swept away. Slowly life returns to normal as the sun shines on the water left behind. A tantalizing echo of what just occurred. Reflections bounce off roofs and streets, glaring in the eyes of those who glance at it.

And as rainbows fill the cracks and spaces, everyone forgets about the beauty that just took place. Appointments, duties, and needs fill their heads. And as the seconds fade away, the beauty of the moment disappears.

But yet, it lingers on, waiting for that next rainy day.

il amore e la belleza

2008-10-24T00:37:00.000-07:00

I was browsing my deviantart account today and I came across stuff I'd written back when I was in high school.

And I'm going to post a couple of my favourite short pieces :)

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“I just want to wake up!” The scream rose through the darkness that threatened to engulf her. “Someone, anyone come save me and pull me up!” She pleaded as a sob ragged and dry escaped her throat. “Please just come for me,” her form bent over as the rush of tears took over her body. Spent, she stared at the wall in front of her, one of the four that she had put up to protect herself. Tears began to prickle in her eyes again as she bit her mouth shut to prevent any sound from escaping.

Come to me, and I will come near to you.

Where did the voice come from? Last she knew no unwanted people, sounds, or voices penetrated he citadel.

Come beloved, I stand and call.

Drumming her fingers into her ears, she tried to block out the voice. Why wouldn’t it go away? It was wreaking havoc with her heart. She had thought that she had killed it. So she couldn’t feel anymore. She thought she had dealt with that voice years ago.

Beloved! I love you. Come.

No! She would force the voice to go away. Standing up, she ran around the confines she had built for herself searching for a way to escape the voice. It stirred thoughts that were supposed to be long dead. Smells, feelings, sights, tastes. All surrounded her.

How I’ve longed to gather you to me my love.

Slowly her defenses began to crumble

I have never forgotten you.

Unbidden, hope began to grow in her breast.

I have loved you with an everlasting love.

It wasn’t true. It couldn’t be- could it?

My love, I will be your help.

That was impossible. Who would want to help her? It was her fault in the beginning that she was in this situation. Was it true though? These promises of help and love forever?

Place your hope in me my rose of Sharon. I will guard it and help it grow.

Everyone she had hoped in had hurt her. Why should she trust this voice of reassurance? For all she knew it could be another person, there just to use her until she had served her purpose. No earlier, no later. However, there was something in his voice that she couldn’t help begin to trust.

Come search for me, and I will make myself known to you.

She just had to search for him?

What a joke! You believe this shit? You have better more productive things to do than listen to this crap.

Another voice pushed its way into her head. A grown came out before she could stifle it.

What? You don’t want me? I heard what you know. I hear everything who was the one always there for you. Making sure that you were molded into the person you are today. He could never do that.

The voice before had sounded more loving and inviting. Granted he had always been there for her. His suggestions and prodding somehow had put where she was today. Prison.

There is a glory calling you my love. Come to me.

Unbidden, her hands grasped towards the voice. Loving and wonderful.

NOOOOOOO!

A scream so terrible and so penetrating pierced the air.

I won’t let go of you. I worked so hard to get you. I won’t let you escape.

The bonds that she had placed upon herself grew tighter, forcing her arms to constrict to her sides. She lashed out at him, “I want to be rid of you and the “comfort” you give. Leave me.”

Never. You’re mine. You gave up yourself to me. Mind body and soul. It’s impossible my pet.

A hiss of laughter surrounded her. Taunting and hurtful.

She’s mine. I created her, and I choose to take her. I love her with all I posses.

More laughter.

Like I said, impossible. She’s mine forever. Unless…

The voice dripped with evil and foreboding.

Unless I take her place.

She’s destined to die.

I know.

You fool! Why would you do that?

Because I love her.

The laughter sounded again. A string of bells rung discordantly.

Finally! My desire has come. My desire has taken shape at last.

She somehow knew what was going to happen. It was like a blow to her resolve. This man, whomever he was. Was going to die in her place. She didn’t understand. It was her fault. It was all her fault. The yell seemed to come from nowhere. “NO! Please don’t do it. Please!”

Oh but it is. It is far too late. You stupid little girl.

She shrank under his voice. Tears sprang to her eyes. “But I’m not worth it. I’m not worth it for you to die for me. I’m not worth it.” Her voice trailed off into a whisper.

But beloved. You are. You are worth anything to me.

She could sense it more than feel it. Someone was dieing. Slow and painfully. And she knew exactly who it was. “Why? Why? Why did you ever do this to yourself?” Tears rolled silently down her cheeks. There was nothing she could do. If only it hadn’t come to this. She would have come to him and loved him for all she was worth.

The idiot! You’re still mine to keep. Nothing he did or could have done would save you.

The laughter grew around her. Louder and louder. Yet could hope be real again? All because of a thought just borne in her head? She was free now. This man who had died for her. He wouldn’t do that unless he could prove himself victorious. The hope blossomed within her. She could be free from the prison she had made. She only had one choice now. Freedom or slavery. Bounding up, she yelled, “I choose freedom and love!” At the top of her lungs. “I choose beauty,” she almost whispered to herself. A loving intimate thought.

Light began to shine through her walls, crumbling them upon the touch of its rays. Climbing over them, she shed all the burdens and chains that she had desperately held onto all these years. For the first time, she felt free, and the scream of dismay at her escape could do nothing to dampen her spirits. She was free. If only He hadn’t died. If only she had chosen him before all this.

But darling, I’m here.

Spinning, she looked around. A smile burst forth when she sighted a man waiting for her. Picking up her feet, she ran into his arms. All she could feel was love radiating from the arms surrounding her. “I’m sorry I didn’t come to you earlier. I’m so sorry.”

You wouldn’t be truly free if it was the other way around.
I love you.

woot woot

2008-10-22T09:51:00.000-07:00

How exciting. I bought a Macintosh. And no, not the fruit :P Last week, Apple released the new macbook family and I bought the new and snazzy macbook. Finally, I'm realizing a dream that I've had since oh gosh, at least high school. I honestly can't wait till I get it in me puny wee little hands.

Needless to say, I am excited. I've been tracking it on the UPS site ever since I learnt that it was shipped. It started it's journey in Shanghai on the 20th, and currently it's in Anchorage, Alaska, having made a stop in Chiba, Japan. Woot! Maybe I'll have it tomorrow or by Friday!

LOL

daisy

2008-10-08T01:39:00.000-07:00

nero e bianca. i margherite

childlike

2008-10-07T13:58:00.001-07:00

la mia amica picola

l'autunno

2008-10-05T21:54:00.000-07:00

some of the most beautiful moments happen when you least expect it.

Taken on my way home from the bus stop.

il mare

2008-10-04T16:34:00.000-07:00

vedere fuore

bella naturale

sisters

2008-10-04T15:46:00.001-07:00

Entwined. Holding the other, safe from the world in which they live. Even if for a short space of time.

feminity

2008-10-04T11:35:00.000-07:00

l'attente

la femme

eirwen online: unplugged